25 & Undeniably Lost.
« Thread started on: Jun 30th, 2014, 05:06am »
I am reaching out for the first time in a long time. I haven't had things in my life in complete control but in control enough not to have to reach out for advice. So lets start from the beginning. I've worked in veterinary medicine for about 7 years now with the last 5 consisting of Emergency medicine and the past 2 working graveyard shifts. The hospital I currently work at is one that I was fired from before and I have been back for about 1 year now. I used to have such a love for this job and always saw myself following it as a career path. Its the main reason I never felt the need to go back to school after I received my GED. The hospital that I work for is a fantastic hospital in the way of medicine but the owners and vets are terrible to work for. This job is difficult on its own and it makes it hard to enjoy it working for people who treat you like less than dirt. The past few weeks I've noticed that my productivity level has diminished and the love I once had for this job is gone. I miss the excitement and the rush I got from helping people reach their pets medical needs. Last week I was pulled aside by one of the owners who told me that is was obvious that hated it it here and that my bad attitude was affecting my job. I've felt like there has been extreme animosity towards me for some time now but have shrugged it off as nothing. I don't think the two owners realize how awful they truly are and that they are the reason I've lost my passion for this job. I was told that together we needed to come up with an exit strategy for myself so that I could find new emplyemtn and pursue a new career. I know that sounds generous but the only reason they are not firing me outright is because they cannot lose an overnight technician because who would cover the shift. They dont want to be in bind. With all that being said I don't know where to go veterinary medicine has been my life since I've been an adult and I do know that I want something different as a career. Financially I'm in a bind. Not only am I getting ready to lose my job but I'm also severely in debt and haven't been able to get myself out of that with a job. How is this possible at 25. I have not ever had the opportunity to enjoy my life. I've been paying loads of bills since I can remember. I don't have parental figures with the means to help me and I never have. I deserve a better life than this. I dont deserve to be constantly in over my head, upside down, and being stepped on by life every chance it gets. Where do I go from here. I want a profession that I love that I look forward to going to everyday and feel satisfied with my life at the end of the day. I'm sure I'm leaving a bunch of details out but until this point I haven't even put my feelings into words. Someone somewhere has got to have been in this position and knows what to do because I can not go on living like this. I just can't.